I do not want to claim to be anything more than a stranger on the internet, behind a computer screen, doing the best that they can with what they have. When I started this project several years ago I didn’t know what I was doing other than following an impulse towards something that felt right. Something I hadn’t quite felt in the same way that I had suddenly experienced. So I kept going and going and I followed that path blindly through what I would later find to be that of one towards healing. I was unfamiliar with this process as it had suddenly snuck up on me. I willingly let it unfold as I started to discover new truths both about myself and my overall life experiences.
What I originally considered my life to be started to fall apart as I began to physically, mentally, and emotionally shift in ways I’d never imagined before. I didn’t know what was happening but it was clear to me that something was, and that I had no choice in whether to stop it or not. It was going to bring upon a major upheaval to my insides whether I agreed with it or not.
I understand my life a lot more now in the context of mental health and how abuse can be passed on from generation to generation. I understand the ways that it can manifest and the ways it also stopped me from becoming a person early on. I am in no way, shape, or form “fully” healed. I am, like I previously mentioned, just a stranger on the internet trying to do the best they can with what they have.